This is what happens when you blink

It's all a matter of perspective I know, but it is amazing to me, time.
Sometimes I close my eyes to remember the day we started this little family, it was a life time ago, a million years ago, I remember it clearly but like it's like a view of a mountain range from the top of a snow covered peak. So beautiful and so far away,
Then, in the interest of a good paradox, moments like to day occur and simply take my breath away. I thought that when she turned 16 I was going to feel something momentous but I didn't. Maybe because there were too many people around, maybe there were too many summertime festivities going on, maybe it was because Sean was away, maybe it was because she was reeling from the idea of turning 16 and was feeling so needy, probably it was because I was expecting something to happen. Things like this never happen when you expect them to.
But today, today as I sat beside Sean in the waiting area of the driver licencing office and watching her go through the process of getting her learner's driving licence it happened. I can not believe my baby girl has grown up so fast. Wasn't it just yesterday that I was strapping her into a front facing car seat? Tears threatened, my chest expanded with pride, I had the goofy mama smile plastered across my face. I can't put it into words but I can tell you this, it was Momentous.

Sweet sixteen baby girl.

Well, I did it.

I've gone and done it now. 
I've registered for the "Cultivating Courage" course at Superhero Life. I got my preparation papers, I read the questions then promptly put it all away to address later.The simple fact that preparing for this courage course freaks me out....is freaking me out. Am I going to be able to do this? How did I get to this place where everything is scary? I used to climb mountains and kayak rivers for goodness sake.

On a lighter note, I made vegetarian chilli tonight. I learned that my family does not like cumin and if I keep this up I may have a revolt on my hands. Do I dare move forward with lentil shepherds pie tomorrow?

Hello October

It's nice to see you again.
What shall we do this month?
Explore some vegetarian meals? That thai soup tonight was good.
Cultivate some courage? I could use a little of that.
More yoga? Hhmm, sounds nice.
Create something beautiful? Alright.
Embrace October? I did sit on the porch and savour a mocha this afternoon, I must say October, you are looking mighty fine.